Dedication to my wonderful momma

On October 21st, we celebrated the life of my wonderful mother. It was a beautiful service, beautiful reception and beautiful burial. Still seems surreal to think she's gone. She's resting next to my daddy watching over my siblings and I, and their grand children. The out poor of support from friends and family that attended was amazing. 

For the reception, I made a slideshow video. It was hard putting together, but it was even harder to watch it with everyone there.. It made everyone cry. Even my tough hubby bawled when it got to the end with the pics of her and our baby girl...

I did receive many compliments on the slideshow. Even my brother said I did a wonderful job. That made me feel good to hear, to know that everyone enjoyed watching something that took a lot out of me to make.

The songs I picked for the video were all songs that my mom absolutely adored.

To watch the video, just click the link below (it won't let me insert the video directly into my blog for some dumb reason)...

Video Slideshow Dedication To My Mom

One Month Family Portraits

We had some professional family pictures taken for Adriana's 1 month of life. Finally have them back. I must say, they are soooooooo wonderful!!! I am totally in love them, and her!!!! :-)

A TOTAL PRINCESS, RIGHT???

Love my little family!!! :-)

Tiny little feeties!!!

Worst... Day.... of my life.......

My Facebook post from yesterday pretty much sums it up......

"Heaven has a new angel today, as my mom passed away early this morning. On June 4th she received news that the treatment wasn't working and was given 2-3 months left on earth. The 3 month mark was my due date. All she wanted was to live to see Adriana be born. Thankfully, she hung on long enough to hold her grand baby and spend a precious 6 weeks with her. Words cannot describe our sadness today. My mom will forever be missed. Love you mommy!!!

R.I.P. 9/10/1945 - 10/13/2013 — feeling devastated."



I honestly don't even know where to begin.. This is the day I've been dreading since June 4th... My heart hurts immensely. It was bad enough losing my dad 5 years ago, but losing my mom is just not something I was ready for. She still had so much life to live, and it's just done. Over. I'm never going to see her again. I just can't accept this, even though I know I have to... I miss her so much and I know I'm going to miss her forever.. I don't want to go on without her. Waking up every morning knowing I won't get to see my mom, talk to my mom, hug my mom.. ever?? I don't know how to handle this right now.. 

I hate that Adriana will never get to know her gramma. Adriana has no living grandparents or great grandparents whatsoever on my side of the family. This is just so devastating. Keirdan, Kiara, Hailey and Adriana don't have their grandmother, my sisters, brother and I don't have our mommy. We only have each other now... Don't get me wrong, I know we all have our aunts and uncles, friends, other relatives, in laws etc, it's just weird.. unsettling.. not having parents, or grandparents.. Not having our first go to for hugs, advice and just plainly, love. I will miss my mother dearly. I just don't know what else to say right now. Maybe I will be able to write more at another time, when I'm less shaken up and thinking more clearly.. We'll see.

MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU MOMMY!!!!!!!!!! :-(

One Month Old Already?!?!

Soooooooooooo, not sure how this is possible, but my baby girl is already 1 month old!! Where does the time go?? It's been a busy first month. Full of excitement and yet also, full of heartache and sadness. My mom is not looking so well the past couple days. We've been visiting with her so much. She absolutely loves seeing baby girl. It's just hard to see my mommy feeling so miserable and watching her body and mind rapidly deteriorating. She is a good person, she doesn't deserve this! 68 is not old by todays standards by any means. She barely got to live in her dream rambler, she won't get the chance to visit Ireland, she won't see all of her grand kids grow up, and quite simply, she will not truly grow old. It just doesn't seem fair
I don't know what I'm going to do without her. I'm scared. I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like for her. This is just so hard. :'(

The only thing that is getting me through witnessing all of this, is my sweet baby girl. I would be completely falling apart if I didn't have her in my life right now.
So, to commemorate her 1 month of life, I have started a milestone shoot on her star blankie I got for her. Her monthly milestones will all be shot on this blankie to track her ever growing adorableness!!! Here's to month 1!! Love you baby girl!!! :-)